whats on my mind you ask? whats on my mind? how about a brief stint in sanity followed by a long period of being insane. does that work for you? how much would you mind just letting loose of those things that hold you back….realizing that not everything can be accomplished, not everyone can be ok with everyone else. what do you miss about life that is no longer? do you miss the times where responsibility was never forced? when life was explored as you grew with it? how do you be happy again? what are the constants in life that help you reach happiness? you ask me my definition and i reply, i know what it is, i know what i want but the journey is the rough part. i apologize for being frank, for being upfront about whats on my mind. i apologize for not being ok, but i need to let things out sometimes. who doesn't? the body is amazingly adaptable. things can happen, things can be endured that not everyone will understand. but the mind will work through the problems and come out on the other side. emotionless. i sit and wonder. stare at the dark of loneliness. i'm sick of all this woe is me bullshit. life is too short not to be happy. i have to make a promise to myself to change myself. to become a better person. i know that i go through ups and downs - thats what makes me human. instead of dwelling on things to make me down, find the good and focus on that. realize how nice it feels to be nice to someone. do not overwhelm yourself, but do not think that you are better than those around. when it all comes down to it, life is about surrounding yourself with people who are good for you. with people who understand you and will care for and about you no matter what. if you just be happy and nice to people you shouldn't have to worry about them fucking you over in the long run.